9/6/20

Sometimes when i’m feeling joy

I get sad

A knot rises in my stomach and darkens the sun

I know what it is

A familiar foe

You probably know it too

Anxiety

Sometimes active, sometimes dormant, 

It’s always there

Waiting to complicate a pure moment

I’m laughing with my partner and suddenly

(the good doesn’t last you know)

Anxiety whispers into my heart

I’m sharing an intimate moment with my family

(yes but think about the pain of the past)

It tries to draw me away from now

From love

From light 

From truth

It lies.

You are pure light

You are the sun and the moon

The whole galaxy swims inside of you (and you)

You are a burst of golden light

You are not your anxiety

(And I am not mine)

It lies

It lies